I've got a testimony

 

June 28, 2024

 

Last night the devil attacked, and he hit hard. He had me pinned and I feared he was going to win. He whispered lies and mixed in pleasure, but I knew my mind was in grave danger. I prayed to the Lord, You said Keep on Praying, I’m going under, it’s you I’m needing. I heard the song within my mind, I heard you whisper every line. The voice of truth tells me a different story, the voice of truth says do not be afraid, the voice of truth says this is for my glory, OUT OF ALL THE VOICES CALLING OUT TO ME, I WILL CHOOSE TO LISTEN AND BELIEVE THE VOICE OF TRUTH. I had a choice I had a choice I had to listen to Your voice!

I got up ready to go, ready to pray, but Oh, where to start, how to begin, so the battle wouldn’t start again. So I prayed the song I love to sing, Teach me to pray, Teach me to pray, teach me to pray. Then I took a potty break. When I came back I turned on the radio as the praises to God always give me hope. And the song blared out so loud and clear, Father let your kingdom come, Father let your will be done, on earth as in heaven, right here in my heart. That’s where to start! Jesus gave us this example, these sung words followed His model.

Then I heard, I’ve got about, a million reasons to praise you, a million stories to tell. And I knew that part of my warfare is how I fell. When I’m defeated the devil keeps my mouth shut, His punches get me in the gut. But when I get up in victory, that’s when I truly need to sing His praise each and every day. To share my testimony. God gives me a testimony to share, and He makes it clear, it is by the blood of Jesus and the testimony of the Lamb where our salvation lies.

Our God is an awesome God, this much is true. Can I tell you how much He loves me and you? He knew we were sinners, He knew we’d rebel, but He sent His son to save us from hell! Our walk may not be perfect, but we our flesh we crucify, as we set our gaze on Him and always testify. His kindness is perfect, His mercy is sweet, He grace restores us every day of the week.

I didn’t want to wait to share, I know I want to proclaim how He cares! Oh how He loves you and me, oh how he loves you and me, He gave His life, what more could He give, oh how He loves you and me.

The Lord will fight my battles, in the storm He says Peace Be Still. I want to surrender my life to Him and follow His mighty will. So let me pray and let me praise, let me seek You all my days, give me faith to move the mountains, in the battle help me to stand, and help me stand quite literally, put out the fire in my body. Or light the fire with your spirit so nothing else can come near it. Either way I say, I’ll raise a hallelujah every day. I won’t let the rocks cry out instead of offering my praise. I’ll look for ways to testify to love, to share your mercy and grace you’ve given from above.

These losses I’ve suffered threaten to send me into deep depression. But this is my confession. You are my possession.

It’s going to be okay, You’re teaching me to pray, and I learn something new each day, How to submit to Your way.

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